Time does not heal all wounds

I don't build a wall around myself to block those I love out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it.

I like dreaming. My dreams are the one place where everything is ideal for me. But realistically, I'm still relationship phobic. I'm too afraid of getting hurt. Getting hurt is one thing that I take great pains to avoid. If there's a chance I may get hurt, I'm outta there. I know that to a lot of people out there, I sound very cold and unfeeling when I talk about my family. Especially when I summarize my home life in about 3 sentences. They just don't get that it is easier for me to state it in a matter-of-fact way. It hurts less that way. Further explanations just lead me to reliving my past. 

They say time heals all wounds. That's not true, you know. Time creates a scar over the wounds. But those scars can be opened to reveal the wound underneath. And it happens more easily than you'd expect. Sometimes, I find wounds that I never thought were there. I'm reminded of past hurts that I thought I'd forgotten.

For me, opening my heart to someone will also mean exposing the wounds, hurts, and scars of the past. The defects of the mind are like the wounds of the body. I try to take care to heal them and forget, but the scars will still be there, and there is always the danger of their reopening. And it hurts. Like hell.

There are some hurts that you never completely get over. And you think that time will diminish their presence, and it does, to a degree. But it still hurts. Because well, hurt hurts.
- The Story of Us