No regrets.

“Every experience in life, everything with which we have come in contact in life, is a chisel which has been cutting away at our life statue, molding, modifying, shaping it. We are part of all we have met. Everything we have seen, heard, felt, or thought has had its hand in molding us, shaping us." 

-Orison Swett Marden

I used to live in a world of 'what if's. I questioned myself every day, about almost everything. And I would wonder, what would happen if I did things differently. So much so that, I would keep looking back on the past and wish I could turn back time, so I could do things differently.

-What if I had completed my studies?
-What if I had chosen to work at another bookstore, instead of going into customer service?
-What if I had just accepted another call center job in March?
-What if I said something?
-What if I kept silent?
-What if I did/did not do something?
-What if I had expressed myself more?
-What if I had tolerated a bit more?

Then I came across this verse:
And don't be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else. Where you are right now is God's place for you. Live and obey and love and believe right there.
1 Corinthians 7:17 (MSG)

Where I am right now, is God's place for me. He has led me to where I am today, and the person I am now. All things happen for a reason. All I need to do is to trust in Him, that He will guide my path. When I look back on my life, I can see God's hand working. He has always been faithful, He has always provided, and He has never forsaken me. I will live in the now He has given to me, and try to always obey, show love, and continue to believe in Him, in His grace.

I want to live life with no regrets. I occasionally still wonder what could have been, what is coming, and what is to be. But I can honestly say that I have no regrets. All my life experiences- the pain, the despair, the sorrows, the hurts, the depression, the desperation, the joy, the hope, the prayers, the happy times - they have shaped me into who I am today. I am constantly being shaped and molded. 

I am constantly changing. And I pray that I will always change for the better, to be a better me by the day.

Life is too short to waste time on regret. What has happened, has passed. I need to learn to let go. To learn from mistakes, and try not to repeat them. To learn from my experiences so I will be a wiser person. To be kinder, and more compassionate. To be more understanding and empathetic. To be the woman that He intends me to be.