Waiting....to grow...

Watching city lights from the balcony while contemplating life.

"Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.”

- Alice Walker

A longing.

In the depths of my soul, I longed to be a part of something large and good; something that required all of me; something dangerous and worth dying for. 

- John & Stasi Eldredge, Captivating

Insomnia inspired.

Ok. I'm about to embark on a new life adventure. Gonna be taking off Down Under with my boyfriend and bestie. Every girl should be so lucky to have 2 people in her life willing to do this with her.

Honest confession: I'm the terrified one who can't stop wondering about the 'what ifs'. I feel soooo insecure about this. Stop me, please.

I know this is something I've always wanted to experience, or thought I did. To quit a job that was starting to drain me, and do something completely different. To take a road less traveled. To breakaway from my comfort zone. To spread my wings and fly. To experience working and living in a different country.

Oh dear God, please give me peace and help me to trust You that it will all work out according to your perfect plan.